Ol g\u00fcn\u2026 Ol g\u00fcn ba\u015fga bir g\u00fcndi\u2026 To\u00fd gidip durdy. Da\u015f \u2013 t\u00f6weregi\u0148 \u015fowhuny gulagy\u0148y de\u015fip bar\u00fdardy. To\u00fd, \u00fdene \u2013 de to\u00fd\u2026 \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr, to\u00fdlar to\u00fda ula\u015fybersin! To\u00fdlarda gazanlar ga\u00fdnasyn, \u00e7elpekler \u00fdapylsyn, k\u00fc\u015ft depilip, altyn gabak atylsyn! (To\u00fdu\u0148 dabarasy) \u00ddeke \u2013 \u00fdal\u0148yz, bir ba\u015fyna perzendini g\u00f6zli \u2013 ba\u015fly etmek \u00fc\u00e7in b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6mr\u00fcni \u00fdeke ge\u00e7iren, hany \u2013 manyny, b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcn\u00fdesini, barlygyny \u00fdeke perzendine bagy\u015f eden ene ,perzendini\u0148 bagty \u00fc\u00e7in g\u00f6re\u015fen ene bu g\u00fcn ilini \u2013 g\u00fcn\u00fcni \u00fc\u00fd\u015f\u00fcrip, to\u00fd tut\u00fdardy, onda- da n\u00e4hili to\u00fd?! Ene uludan demini aldy: \u2013 He\u00fd\u00fd\u00fd, \u015fonda \u2026 \u00dd\u00fcregimi\u0148 h\u00e4zir \u00fdeke perzendimi g\u00f6zli \u2013 ba\u015fly ed\u00fd\u00e4rk\u00e4m, baran derejesini di\u00fdsene! Bagtdan \u00fda\u0148a u\u00e7\u00fdardym, \u015fol pursat. \u201cMa\u0148a perzendimi\u0148 bagtyna guwanmagy nesip eden Allama m\u00fc\u0148 \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr\u201d- di\u00fdip, ganatlarymy \u00fdere d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrjek bol\u00fdardym! Men \u015fol pursat AR\u015eDADYM! Birdenem bo\u00fdda\u015fym elimden \u00e7ekdi- de meni bir \u00e7ete \u00e7ekip \u00e7ykardy. Menem: \u201cMe\u0148 bilen tans etjek bol\u00fdandyr\u201d- di\u00fdip, ellerimi galgadyp tans etm\u00e4ge ba\u015fladym. \u00ddok, be\u00fdle d\u00e4l eken. Ol \u00fdylgyrdy \u2013 da meni bir \u00e7ete alyp \u00e7ykardy. Elind\u00e4ki torbajykda getiren sowgadyny ma\u0148a tutdyrdy \u2013 da: \u2013 To\u00fda getiren sowgadyny elime tutdyrdy- da bir \u00e7ete \u00e7ekip ony uzadyp bir zatlar di\u00fddi. To\u00fd \u015fowhunyny\u0148 i\u00e7inde hi\u00e7 zat e\u015fidilme\u00fd\u00e4rdi: \u2013 \u015euny a\u00e7! -Ga\u015fymy \u00e7ytyp: \u2013 N\u00e4me di\u00fd\u00fd\u00e4\u0148? E\u015fidilenok?! Edil to\u00fd g\u00fcni meni bo\u00fdda\u015fym to\u00fdu\u0148 bir \u00fdan \u00e7etine \u00e7ekip, ma\u0148a \u201csowgat a\u00e7dyrar\u201d \u00f6\u00fddemokdym\u2026 Be\u00fdle \u2013 de bol\u00fdar eken\u2026 Elime berilen torbajygy\u0148 i\u00e7inde bir gizlinje zat bar \u00fdalydy, ol \u00fdylgyryp sered\u00fd\u00e4rdi: \u2013 A\u00e7sana, gyz, a\u00e7\u2026 Bo\u00fdda\u015fymy\u0148 ma\u0148a \u00fdylgyryp dur\u015fy meni birmahallar d\u00fcn\u00fd\u00e4ni\u0148 i\u0148 \u00fdyly nokadyndan alyp ga\u00e7an bir \u00fdigidi\u0148 ahynda t\u00e4zeden o\u00fdanjak du\u00fdgularymy a\u00e7jakdygyny men ne bile\u00fdin? (To\u00fdu\u0148 dabarasy) Men ony alyp tansa \u00e7ykjak boldum \u2013 da , elinden \u00e7ekdim: \u2013 Dursana, entek a\u00e7arys, n\u00e4m\u00e4 howluk\u00fda\u0148? \u00dd\u00f6r, bu g\u00fcn b\u00e4rdesi\u0148 \u2013 \u00e4 , to\u00fd \u00fderinde sowgat a\u00e7yp dursa\u0148, n\u00e4hili bor, \u00fd\u00f6rsene gyz , tans edeli -le! Ol elimden \u00e7ekdi \u2013 de \u00fdene \u2013 de meni sowgat \u2013 salamdan doly stoly\u0148 gapdalyna \u00e7ekdi, elimd\u00e4ki \u00f6z getiren torbajygyny hallanlatdy-da \u00fdene-de g\u00fcl\u00fcmsir\u00e4p: \u201ca\u00e7\u201d di\u00fddi. Men ga\u015flarymy \u00e7ytyp, bo\u00fdda\u015fymy\u0148 \u00fd\u00fcz\u00fcne seretdim \u2013 de birhili nazar bilen \u00fd\u00fczlendim: \u2013 N\u00e4me bar gyz , mu\u0148 i\u00e7inde? O\u00fdun ed\u00fd\u00e4ndir, \u00f6\u00fdtd\u00fcm, belki- de \u00fda\u015flygymyzy , talyp \u00fdyllarymyzy \u00fdatlap, o\u00fdun ed\u00fd\u00e4\u0148dir \u00f6\u00fdtd\u00fcm\u2026 (To\u00fd dabarasy, to\u00fd e\u00fdesini \u00e7agyr\u00fdan sesler, iki jahan owarrasy bolup duran to\u00fd e\u00fdesini\u0148 nir\u00e4 gitse gowy boljakdygyny bilme\u00fd\u00e4n aljyra\u0148\u0148y sesi birhili garja\u015fyk du\u00fdgulary \u00fdada sal\u00fdardy: \u2013 Wa\u00fdeee\u00fd\u00fd\u00fd, n\u00e4d\u00fd\u00e4\u0148 gyz, so\u0148 a\u00e7ardyk \u2013 da. Men bo\u00fdda\u015fymy\u0148 sag- aman elinden sypsam bol\u00fdar, \u201cg\u00f6wn\u00fcne deg\u00e4\u00fdme\u00fdin\u201d- di\u00fdip hem \u00e7ekin\u00fd\u00e4n. To\u00fdda bar ki\u015fi asyl \u015fe\u00fdlebir ynjyk bol\u00fdar eken welin, \u00f6\u0148ki ynjyklyklaryny\u0148 hem \u00fcst\u00fcne iki esse bola\u00fd\u00fdar ekeni. Hamana to\u00fd e\u00fdesi to\u00fduny ta\u015flap, olary\u0148 \u00fd\u00fcz\u00fcne seredip oturmaly \u00fdaly, to\u00fd e\u00fdesini\u0148 ba\u015fga i\u015fi \u00fdok \u00fdaly. To\u00fd e\u00fdesini\u0148 derdi \u00fdetik ahyry, to\u00fdu\u0148 aladalary, gel\u00fd\u00e4n \u2013gid\u00fd\u00e4n myhmanlar, to\u00fd \u015fagala\u0148yny d\u00f6retmek \u00fc\u00e7in gel\u00fd\u00e4n bag\u015fy-sazandalara halat \u2013 serpa\u00fd, \u00fdedi \u00fda\u015flydan \u00fdetmi\u015f \u00fda\u015fla \u00e7enli \u00e4hli ki\u015fileri\u0148 to\u00fd e\u00fdesini g\u00f6rjek bolup, \u00e7ozu\u015fyp gelmeleri, garaz to\u00fd e\u00fdesini\u0148 \u00fdakynlaryndan ba\u015fga \u2013 da aladasy k\u00e4n ahbetin, \u015fol g\u00fcn. Menem \u015fol seb\u00e4pli ba\u00fd bo\u00fdda\u015fymy\u0148 elinden sypjak boldum- a . Olam- a sypdyrarly d\u00e4ldi. Men: \u2013 \u00dd\u00f6r k\u00fc\u015ft depeli- le tans edeli- le di\u00fddim. N\u00e4me di\u00fdsem hem ge\u00e7mejegni bildim. (Garaz sowgady a\u00e7a\u00fdmasam ol meni sypdyrjak d\u00e4ldi.) \u2013 A\u00e7sana\u2026 ! Men bo\u00fdda\u015fymy\u0148 a\u0148sat \u2013 a\u0148sat adama \u00fdalbarma\u00fdanyny bilsem hem , to\u00fd \u015fowhunyny\u0148 i\u00e7i bilen \u00fdene \u2013 de bo\u00fdda\u015fymy\u0148 eginlerini\u0148 \u00fcst\u00fcnden to\u00fdu\u0148 dabarasyna seretdim. Ellerini galgadyp \u201cmeni \u00e7agyr\u00fdan\u201d myhmanlaryma \u00e7alaja \u00fdylgyran boldum \u2013 da \u00fdene \u2013 de bo\u00fdda\u015fymy\u0148 \u00fd\u00fcz\u00fcne seretdim. \u00d6mr\u00fcmde nijeme m\u00fc\u0148ler\u00e7e gezek sowgat berilen hem bolsam, hi\u00e7 wagt sowgat getiren adamy\u0148 \u00f6\u0148\u00fcnde getiren sowgadyny a\u00e7yp g\u00f6rm\u00e4ndim. Bu meni\u0148 ejabyma gabat gelme\u00fd\u00e4rdi. Ol meni\u0148 medeni\u00fdetimde \u00fdokdy, enem \u2013 atamdandyr, belki\u2026 Sowgat g\u00f6rmedik zadym d\u00e4l, \u00fd\u00f6ne ol h\u00e4zir sowgat a\u00e7yp dursam, meni\u0148 \u00fda\u015fyma \u2013 da geli\u015fme\u00fd\u00e4r ahbetin\u2026 Onso\u0148am, sowgat bir bahana , g\u00f6w\u00fcndir adamy\u0148ky, g\u00f6w\u00fcn\u2026 Men \u00e7alaja \u00fdylgyrdym \u2013 da \u015fowhun \u2013 dabarany\u0148 e\u00fdesi h\u00f6km\u00fcnde ellerimi tans o\u00fdna\u00fdan myhmanlara galgatdym: \u2013 Bar\u00fda- a- a \u2013 n\u2026 G\u00f6\u00fd\u00e4ki olar hem bu gola\u00fdda barmajakdygymy bil\u00fd\u00e4n \u00fdaly, indi \u00f6zleri g\u00fc\u00fdmenip, bir \u2013 biri bilen tans edip \u00fd\u00f6rd\u00fcler, \u00fdadadylar megerem ellerini galgadyp: Ma\u0148a \u201cgel\u201d di\u00fdmekden, kim bil\u00fd\u00e4? Menem ynha durun , s\u00f6melip, to\u00fdu\u0148 bir \u00e7etinde , sowgatlar go\u00fdul\u00fdan uly tegelek stoly\u0148 ba\u015fynda, \u00f6z\u00fcme uslyp bilemmok \u015fony, myhmanlary ta\u015flap, sowgatlary a\u00e7yp durmany, hem utan\u00fdan\u2026 Elimde \u2013 de torbajyk\u2026 H\u00e4zir a\u00e7a\u00fdamda \u2013 da men barybir \u00fcns\u00fcmi bermejekdigime \u015f\u00fcbh\u00e4m \u00fdokdy. Bo\u00fdda\u015fymy\u0148 barybir meni go\u00fdmajagyny bildim: D\u00fcn\u00fd\u00e4m bilen seslendim: \u2013 A\u00fdtsana gyz n\u00e4me bar\u2026 munu\u0148 i\u00e7inde? \u2013 A\u00e7a\u0148da bilersi\u0148\u2026 Elim torbaly yza \u00e7ekildim \u2013 de onu\u0148 \u00fd\u00fcz\u00fcne seretdim: \u2013 To\u00fd gutaryp bar\u00fdar, jan dogan, adamlar ga\u00fddy\u015f\u00fdar. S\u00e4hel salymy\u0148 i\u00e7inde ge\u00e7ip gid\u00fd\u00e4n dabara gatna\u015fman, to\u00fdu\u0148 bir \u00fdan \u00e7etinde dursak, n\u00e4hili bolar gyz? N\u00e4me bol\u00fdar gyz sa\u0148a? Toba?Bo\u00fdda\u015fym g\u00f6zlerini meni\u0148 g\u00f6z\u00fcme dikip, \u00fdylgyr\u00fdar:- Bol a\u00e7! \u2013 B\u00e4h be\u00fdle \u2013 de bir kejir zenan bolar eken. So\u0148 a\u00e7sak bolma\u00fdamy muny, to\u00fd gutarsyn, \u00f6\u00fde gideli, arka\u00fdynlykda \u00e7a\u00fd ba\u015fynda\u2026 \u2013 \u00ddok a\u00e7, h\u00e4zir a\u00e7! Men \u00f6\u00fde baryp oturma\u00fdyn, uzak \u00fdola ugramaly, e\u00fd\u00fd\u00e4m gij\u00e4ni\u0148 \u00fdary, ertir i\u015fe barmaly. \u2013 Bol\u00fda, so\u0148 yzy\u0148dan ja\u0148 edip a\u00fddaryn n\u00e4me bardygyny\u2026 \u00ddylgyryp, o\u00fdun edip dur\u015fuma, ahyry, gat \u2013 gat kagyzlara dolanan sowgady a\u00e7maga ba\u015fladym. Wagtym \u015fe\u00fdlebir \u00e7\u00e4klidi. To\u00fd gutaryp bar\u00fdardy, her kim gutlajak, tans etjek , uzakdan gelenler ga\u00fdtjak, \u00fdakyndan gelenler bile \u00fdadyg\u00e4rlik surata d\u00fc\u015fjek. Garaz t\u00fcrkmeni\u0148 b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6mr\u00fcne gara\u015fyp, s\u00e4hel salymda hany \u2013 manyny se\u00e7ip ed\u00fd\u00e4n to\u00fdy s\u00e4hel wagtda ge\u00e7ip gid\u00e4\u00fd\u00fd\u00e4r ekeni. Menem \u00f6z \u00fdeke perzendimi\u0148 to\u00fdunda to\u00fd dabarasyny\u0148 hi\u00e7 bir \u00fderini sypdyrmajak bolup, ba\u00fd jan edenem bolsam, onda \u2013 da ine, biri meni gyssap, m\u00fc\u0148 gat kagyza dolanan sowgadyny a\u00e7ydyryp dur- a ma\u0148a, mu\u0148a n\u00e4me di\u00fdjek? G\u00f6rsene, bol\u00fdan zatlary?! \u2013 A\u00fdtsana gyz?Men kagyzlary gaharyma \u00fdyrtyp- \u00fdyrtyp zy\u0148\u00fdardym, setanda \u2013 se\u00fdranda \u00fdylda bir gezek \u00fda g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fd\u00e4n , \u00fda g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fme\u00fd\u00e4n uzaklarda \u00fda\u015fa\u00fdan talyplyk bo\u00fdda\u015fymy\u0148 meni be\u00fddip \u201cezip\u201d durmasy g\u00f6wn\u00fcme meni\u0148 \u00fc\u00e7in ez\u00fdet \u00fdalydy. Onda- da syr bildirmedim. Kagyzlary \u00fd\u00fcz\u00fcne zy\u0148asym gel\u00fd\u00e4rdi. Gyssan\u00fdardym. Arman \u00e7agalyk bo\u00fdda\u015fym. O\u0148a hi\u00e7 wagt gaty- ga\u00fdrym s\u00f6z a\u00fddyp g\u00f6rm\u00e4ndim, ol hem ma\u0148a \u015fe\u00fdle. Dostlugy mukaddes saklap bil\u00fd\u00e4n adamlar az- az bol\u00fdar. Ol hem \u015folary\u0148 biridi. Dostluk gymmat zat. Ol ma\u0148a h\u00e4zir \u00f6\u0148k\u00fclerinden has syrly g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fd\u00e4rdi. Syrly \u00fdylgyrmasyna nazar salany\u0148da, men h\u00e4zir t\u00e4sin bir taryhy tapyndyny\u0148 \u00fcst\u00fcnden bara\u00fdjak \u00fdalydym\u2026 \u2026A\u00e7maga ba\u015flasam hem nijeme gezek gat \u2013 gat kagyza dolanan ki\u00e7ijik zada \u00fdeter \u00fdaly d\u00e4ldi. Bir mahallar to\u00fd \u2013 dabarada \u00fdigit bilen gyza k\u00f6-\u00f6-\u00f6p kagyza dolap, sowgat a\u00e7dyrardylar. Sowgatdan hem \u00fda bir o\u00fdunjak \u00e7ykar, \u00fda- da bir \u00fdaglyjak. Menem \u00fd\u00fczler\u00e7e myhmanlarymy ta\u015flap, h\u00e4zir bagty\u00fdarlyk a\u00fddymyny a\u00fddyp duran \u00fd\u00fcregimi\u0148 g\u00fc\u00fdji bilen, \u00fdeke -dikrarymy\u0148 to\u00fdunda \u00fd\u00fczler\u00e7e gata dolanan kagyzly sowgady a\u00e7\u00fdaryn. \u00dd\u00f6ne meni\u0148 toma\u015fa\u00e7ym gadym to\u00fdlarda a\u00e7yl\u00fdan to\u00fdu\u0148 \u00e4hli myhmanlary \u00fdaly k\u00f6p toma\u015fa\u00e7yly d\u00e4l- de \u00fdekedi. Belki to\u00fddaky be\u00fdleki bo\u00fdda\u015flarym, tany\u015f- bili\u015flerim \u201cN\u00e4me i\u015fle\u00fd\u00e4- gyz ol , o \u00fderde g\u00fc\u00fdmenip\u2026 \u201c di\u00fdse-di\u00fd\u00fd\u00e4ndirlerem. Emma men barybir durun. Meni sypdyrma\u00fdarlar. Elimd\u00e4ki sowgat bilen m\u00e4reke de\u0148zini\u0148 i\u00e7ine gar\u015fy urup giresi gel\u00fd\u00e4r, \u00fd\u00fcregimi\u0148. Onu\u0148 telwasyndan ellerim titre\u00fd\u00e4r. Men \u015fe\u00fdlebir tolgun\u00fdan. G\u00f6\u00fd\u00e4ki men h\u00e4zir u\u00e7malymy\u015fym bir \u00fderelere, emma ganatlarymy bir \u00fd\u00fcpjagaz go\u00fdberme\u00fd\u00e4rmi\u015f. Hem g\u00fclkim gel\u00fd\u00e4r, hem gaharym\u2026 Arasynda gaharym hem gel\u00fd\u00e4r. \u00dd\u00f6ne uzak bir \u00fderden ,\u015fon\u00e7a \u00fdol ge\u00e7ip gelen bo\u00fdda\u015fymy ynjytmajagym belli\u2026 To\u00fd m\u00e4hellesini\u0148 arasyndan gel\u00fd\u00e4n seslerem setanda- se\u00fdranda e\u015fidil\u00fd\u00e4r: \u2013 A gyz gelsene\u2026 \u2013 \u015eahyr , gel ahbetin! Uzakdan salgan\u00fdan ellerden utanyp, a\u00fdak aldygyna sowgady\u0148 kagyzlaryny \u00fdyrty\u015fdyr\u00fdardym. \u00ddadymda\u2026 \u015eol gije- de aljyrapdym, edil bu gije- de aljyradym\u2026 \u00dd\u00f6ne bu aljyra\u0148\u0148ylygy\u0148 \u00fdal\u0148yzlyk d\u00e4ldigini bil\u00fd\u00e4rdim. \u2026 Men sen \u00f6\u00fdlenen gij\u00e4\u0148 \u00e7yndan hem aljyrapdym. Utanypdym. \u00dderi seni\u0148 to\u00fdu\u0148a alyp gid\u00fd\u00e4n kim di\u00fdsene, meni \u015fonda? Bolsa\u0148 bolupsy\u0148- da joramy\u0148\u2026 Adam pahyr bu gi\u0148 d\u00fcn\u00fdede \u00f6z\u00fcnden bidin hem ba\u015fga bir \u00e4lemleri\u0148 bardygyny unud\u00fdan bolmaly, n\u00e4 bileli seni\u0148 be\u00fdle zatlara ula\u015fyp gideni\u0148i\u2026 Sen \u00f6\u00fdlenen gij\u00e4\u0148em\u2026 So\u0148ra bir \u00e4r \u00f6mr\u00fcnden so\u0148, on \u00fdedi \u00fdyldan so\u0148 seni to\u00fdda g\u00f6ren gij\u00e4m hem \u015fe\u00fdle boldy\u2026 Aljyrapdym. Hat \u2013 da \u00f6z\u00fcm parahat bolsam hem , wakalar parahat d\u00e4ldi, hi-i-i\u00e7, \u00fdok h-i-i-i\u00e7 parahat d\u00e4ldi\u2026 Men ony seni\u0148 okamadyk hatlary\u0148da \u00fderle\u015fdiripdim, bil\u00fd\u00e4ndir okyjylarym. Seni\u0148 okamadyk hatlary\u0148 g\u00f6r n\u00e4\u00e7e \u00fd\u00fcz\u00fcnjisidir bu\u2026 Emma men entegem sa\u0148a hat \u00fdazyp bil\u00fd\u00e4nime, entegem g\u00f6wn\u00fcmde seni\u0148 oturandygy\u0148a, seni\u0148 meni unutma\u00fdandygy\u0148a ynan\u015fym \u00fdaly ynan\u00fdaryn\u2026 Be\u00fdleki bo\u00fdda\u015flarymy\u0148 biri to\u00fdu\u0148 dabarasyny\u0148 i\u00e7inden adymy tutup gygyrdy: \u2013 Agyz gele\u0148okmy? \u2013 Bar\u00fdan, bar\u00fdan\u2026 Men g\u00f6zlerimd\u00e4ki m\u00fc\u00fdnli gara\u00fd\u015fy gar\u015fymda durana bakdyrdym \u2013 da i\u00e7imd\u00e4ki alasarmyk pikirimi jeml\u00e4p, h\u00fc\u0148\u00fcrdedim, o\u0148a e\u015fitdirm\u00e4n: \u2013 \u015eu to\u00fdda \u015fular \u00fdaly dolamak n\u00e4m\u00e4 gerek, sowgady? I\u00e7imden has gaharym gelm\u00e4ge ba\u015flady\u2026 Ahyry elim bir \u00fdum\u015fak , \u00fd\u00fcpek bagjyga ildi\u2026 Ol \u00fdylgyrdy\u2026 \u2026Ellerime alan bukjamy bagryma basyp pyrlanasym geldi, \u015fol bagtly g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u2026 Ellerimde bukja , pyrlanmakdan \u00fda\u0148a ba\u015fym a\u00fdlan\u00fdardy, belki\u2026M\u00e4hell\u00e4ni\u0148 i\u00e7inde pyrlanyp \u00fd\u00f6r\u015f\u00fcme \u00f6z\u00fcmi\u0148 \u201cI\u0148 bolman, hayrly bir g\u00fcn bir zatlarda \u00fde\u0148jekdigime ynamym hemi\u015fe bolan\u201d du\u00fdgyma minnetdarlyk bildir\u00fd\u00e4rdim, \u00f6z\u00fcme! G\u00f6\u00fd\u00e4ki \u00e7aga bir \u00fdetip bilme\u00fd\u00e4n zady beriler- de ol berlenine ynanman, g\u00f6zlerini petredip durar -a , ana \u015foldy h\u00e4zir meni\u0148 \u00fdagda\u00fdym\u2026 Emma bagty\u00fdar \u00fda\u015flary g\u00f6r\u00fcp, olary\u0148 bagtyna guwanyp, olary\u0148 bir \u2013 birine gowu\u015fmagy \u00fc\u00e7in elimden gelenini edip, kyn\u00e7ylygy, \u00e4hli zady \u00fde\u0148ip ge\u00e7en g\u00fcnlerime minnetdarlyk bildir\u00fd\u00e4rdim, \u015fo pursat. K\u00e4te- de ynanman i\u00e7imden \u00f6z\u00fcme gygyr\u00fdardym: \u2013 \u00ddooookk, \u00fdooookkkk\u2026 \u015eu bukja meni\u0148kimi? \u2013 Howa, howa seni\u0148ki\u2026 Bo\u00fdda\u015fym g\u00f6zleri bilen \u015fu s\u00f6zi ga\u00fdtala\u00fdardy. Ol g\u00f6\u00fd\u00e4ki ma\u0148a: \u201cMen ony wagtynda getirip berip bilmedim, ine, bu g\u00fcn onu\u0148 \u00f6z\u00fc\u0148kidigi\u0148e g\u00f6z \u00fdetirmegi\u0148 \u00fc\u00e7in , bagty\u0148 i\u0148 \u00fdokary derejesinde durka\u0148, se\u0148 bagty\u0148y go\u015falandyrmak isledim\u201d di\u00fd\u00fd\u00e4n \u00fdaly, tans edi\u015fime seredip bagty\u00fdar \u00fdylgyr\u00fdardy. Birdenem gapdalyma geldi- de meni\u0148 soraglarymy\u0148 \u00e4hlisini \u00e7\u00f6zdi. Meni\u0148 nazarym o\u0148a bakyp sowal ber\u00fd\u00e4rdi: \u2013 Bu bukja\u2026? \u015eOOLmy \u2013 Howa, howa, bu \u015fo- o- ol sa\u0148a wagtynda berilmedik bukja, m\u00e4hriban\u2026 Wagtynda berilen bolsady\u2026 \u2013 A\u00fdtma, a\u00fdtma yzyny\u2026 \u00dda\u0148aklarymdan togarlanyp ga\u00fdd\u00fdan g\u00f6z\u00fda\u015f damjajyklary to\u00fd g\u00f6z\u00fda\u015flary bilen , bagt g\u00f6z\u00fda\u015flary bilen garyl\u00fdardy. \u00c7agalarymy\u0148 bagtyna guwanyp dur\u015fuma, \u00f6z bagtymy\u0148 nirelerde \u00fdatandygyny, ony ha\u00fdsy bukjadan tapyp getirip, bu g\u00fcn elime tutdyrandyklaryny pikir etmeg\u00e4ge- de wagtym bolmady. Myhmanlar ga\u00fddy\u015fmana ba\u015fladylar\u2026 Her kimi\u0148 g\u00f6wn\u00fcni bir g\u00f6rjek bolup , aljyrap \u00fd\u00f6r\u015f\u00fcme elimd\u00e4ki bir zady n\u00e4me \u00fc\u00e7in gysymla\u00fdanyma- da, \u201cga\u00e7yra\u00fdma\u00fdyn\u201d- di\u00fdip, pikirimi\u0148 i\u00e7inde duran bir gyzgynjak du\u00fdga- da men \u015fa\u00fdatdym , \u015fonda! \u00dd\u00f6ne men anyk pikirler bilen \u00fd\u00fczbe \u2013 \u00fd\u00fcz d\u00e4ldim. Men n\u00e4me \u00fc\u00e7in bu bukja mundan kyrk \u00fdyl ozal d\u00e4l \u2013 de gel \u2013 gel bu g\u00fcn \u015fa\u00fdat boldum\u2026Bu bukja e\u00fde boldum\u2026? To\u00fd aljyra\u0148\u0148ylygyny\u0148 \u00fcsti bilen men bagryma basyp \u00fd\u00f6ren zadymy\u0148 n\u00e4medigini hem undupdym. Di\u0148e bir zady bagryma bas\u00fdardym, bir- \u00e4 \u00fdary bilen bagtly bolmagy \u00fc\u00e7in elimden n\u00e4me gelen bolsa, dik durup, \u00f6\u0148\u00fcni ar\u00e7ap, ak \u00fdollara, ak ma\u0148la\u00fdyndan \u00f6pen balamy, birem gujagymda m\u00e4k\u00e4m saklap, ellerimi\u0148 i\u00e7inde er\u00e4p bar\u00fdan ki\u00e7ijik el bukjany. Arasynda hem bo\u00fdda\u015fymy\u0148 \u00fdanyna gel\u00fd\u00e4rdim: \u2013 \u00c7yndanammy? \u2013 Ynan, \u015foool se\u0148 elbukja\u0148\u2026 Arman\u2026 \u2013 A\u00ddTMA , \u00fdalbar\u00fdan, men seni\u0148 dodaklary\u0148a barmaklarymy go\u00fdmak isledim, ejap etdim\u2026 To\u00fd \u015fowhuny\u0148, dabarany\u0148 i\u00e7inden ikimizi\u0148 g\u00fcrr\u00fc\u0148imiz \u00fda\u0148lan\u00fdardy: \u2013 Ol ony\u2026 bu sa\u0148a\u2026di\u00fdip, i\u00fdberdi\u2026 \u2013 Sen \u2026 \u2013 Howa men getirdim, al, nesip etsin\u2026 Bu seni\u0148kimi\u015f\u2026 \u015eon\u00e7a \u00fdyl berilm\u00e4n saklananmy\u015f. Ilki onu\u0148 e\u00fdesi sen d\u00e4lsi\u0148 \u00f6\u00fdd\u00fclenmi\u015f. So\u0148 ba\u015fga biri hem d\u00e4ldigine g\u00f6z \u00fdetirilenmi\u015f. So\u0148 sa\u0148a berm\u00e4ge , i\u00fdberm\u00e4ge \u00fdollar kesilenmi\u015f, so\u0148 \u00fdollar a\u00e7ylanso\u0148 ejap edilenmi\u015f, so\u0148 birhili g\u00f6r\u00fclenmi\u015f\u2026 Bu g\u00fcnem\u2026 \u015eU bukjany bermegi\u0148 \u015fundan amatly pursady \u00fdokmuka di\u00fd\u00fd\u00e4n, \u201cBukjany bagt perdelerini\u0148 \u00e7\u00fcr ba\u015fyna barany\u0148da getirip bere\u00fdinne\u201d di\u00fddim. \u00ddogsa k\u00f6p gezekler ony sa\u0148a berm\u00e4ge synany\u015fdyk\u2026 \u2013 O n\u00e4hili meni\u0148ki, o\u00fdun etmesene?! \u2013 \u00c7ynymy a\u00fdd\u00fdan\u2026 Garry mamamy\u0148kymy\u015f! \u2013 O n\u00e4hili? Garry mama\u0148? A sen? Myhmanlar megerem: \u201cBu ikisini\u0148 s\u00f6hbeti gutarmady- la\u201d di\u00fd\u00fd\u00e4ndir, di\u00fdip, i\u00e7imden o\u00fdlanmaga- da wagt tap\u00fdardym, \u015fonda. \u2013 Howa! Ony ejem hijimize d\u00f6zmedi, hat \u2013 da\u2026 A\u015fak seredip, m\u00fc\u00fdnli \u00fdaly bolup dur\u015funa meni\u0148 g\u00f6zlerimi\u0148 i\u00e7inden ga\u00fdnap, \u00fd\u00fcregimi\u0148 j\u00fcmm\u00fc\u015find\u00e4ki t\u00f6ze gyzgynlyk d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcren g\u00fc\u00fdj\u00fc\u0148 n\u00e4medigine d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnjek bol\u015fum, onu\u0148 jogabyny senden g\u00f6zle\u00fdi\u015fim\u2026 \u2013 A\u00c7SANA, a\u00e7\u2026 Ol seni\u0148 nesib\u00e4\u0148? \u2013 MEN\u2026 meni\u0148\u2026 men\u2026 (Entegem \u00fda\u0148lan\u00fdan gysgajyk s\u00f6hbet juda s\u00fc\u00fdjidi)(To\u00fd dabarasyny\u0148 i\u00e7i bilen \u015fol ga\u00fdtalanyp durdy, ga\u00fdtalanyp durdy\u2026) \u2013 Howa, a\u00e7 ahbetin! Men ellemiz bilen hem a\u00e7\u00fdardym, hem aglamaga synany\u015f\u00fdardym: \u2013 G\u00f6rsene, bu n\u00e4hili be\u00fdle bol\u00fdar? \u00d6z gelnimi\u0148 to\u00fdunda \u00f6z\u00fcmi\u2026 I\u00e7imd\u00e4ki ga\u00fdna\u00fdan g\u00fc\u00fd\u00e7mi, \u00e7e\u015fmemi, bir gyzgynlyk meni alyslara \u00e4kidip, ellerimden tutup, bir garly ga\u00fdada pyl\u00e7ap \u2013 pyl\u00e7ap dag da\u015flaryna ur\u00fdar, men \u00fdene direl\u00fd\u00e4n, \u00fdene \u2013 de ol meni garly , sowuk da\u015fy\u0148 \u00fd\u00fcz\u00fcne ur\u00fdar, men \u00fdene direl\u00fd\u00e4n. \u201cDi\u00fdmek sowuk bilen yssyny\u0148 tebigaty bir \u00fderden bolmaly\u201d Bu bukja mynasyp bolmak \u00fc\u00e7in elenen g\u00fcnlerimi di\u00fdsene. Sen ol g\u00fcnleri n\u00e4hili ge\u00e7irendigimi bil\u00fd\u00e4nem d\u00e4lsi\u0148\u2026 Howa, bil\u00fd\u00e4n hem d\u00e4lsi\u0148: Birdenem b\u00fct\u00fcn to\u00fdy saklap: \u2013 Duru\u0148! \u2013 di\u00fdip, gygyrasym geldi. Emma gygyryp bola\u00fd\u00fdarmy? Duru\u0148! Duru\u0148! Ine , seredi\u0148, bu meni\u0148 elbukjam, buny ma\u0148a, buny ma\u0148a!\u2026 \u00fdyllar \u00f6\u0148 gow\u015furmalydylar. Ellerimde tutup duran elbukjamy aldym- da bagjyjagy hem sallanyp dur, jigi\u0148e uzatdym: Dodaklarym garly gy\u015fda tebsir\u00e4p, \u00fdaryk- \u00fdaryk sowukdan dilik a\u00e7an \u00fdaly, zordan g\u00fcrle\u00fd\u00e4rdi: \u2013 Bu se\u0148ki ahbetin! \u2013 A\u00fdyrsana gyz, me\u0148ki bolarmy, ony sa\u0148a i\u00fdberdi, ejem\u2026 \u2013 Men kim? Men ga\u015flarymy gerdim \u2013 de soraga jogap tapmajagymy bilip, d\u00fcn\u00fd\u00e4ni\u0148 \u00e7ar k\u00fcnj\u00fcne g\u00f6z\u00fcmi gezdirip, a\u00e7 wagty bir d\u00f6w\u00fcm \u00e7\u00f6rek berilen gyzjagazy\u0148 ellerind\u00e4ki \u00e7\u00f6regi niresinden ba\u015flap i\u00fdip ba\u015flajagyny bilme\u00fd\u015fi \u00fdaly bolup dur\u015funa, bukjany\u0148 niresini ellejegimi \u2013 de bilmedim. G\u00f6dek barmaklarymy\u0148 arasyndan bir mahalky n\u00e4zijek hem \u2013 de ysgynsyzja barmaklarym g\u00f6rn\u00fcp giden \u00fdaly boldy. Bu elbukjany n\u00e4zijek barmaklar tutmalydy, mundan nijeme \u00fdyllar \u00f6\u0148\u2026 Howa, ol n\u00e4zijek barmaklar\u2026 Olar meni\u0148 barmaklarym, olar meni\u0148 sa\u0148a, seni\u0148 okamadyk hatlary\u0148y \u00fdazan, seni\u0148 \u00fdazan hatlary\u0148a jogap \u00fdazmaga hem ejap edip, \u201cdyman\u201d barmaklarym, barmajyklarym\u2026 Ol barmaklar nijeme gezek sa\u0148a hat \u00fdazmana synany\u015fdy. Ol elbukjada sa\u0148a \u00fdazylan hatlar durmalydy. Indi ol hatlar hem saraldy, y\u015fk bir ki\u00e7ijik \u00fdadyg\u00e4rlige \u00f6wr\u00fcldi. Emma ol hatlary\u0148 saralan suduryny salmaga elbukjamy\u0148 bardygyna men begendim. Ol hatlar hakyky \u00fderinde durjak, seni\u0148 okamadyk hatlary\u0148 ma\u0148a berilen elbukjada \u00f6z \u00fderini tapar. Bu esasy zat. Barmaklarmy\u0148 arasy bilen tutup bar\u00fdan elbukjamy m\u00e4hell\u00e4ni\u0148 i\u00e7inden bagjyklaryny sallap \u00fd\u00f6r\u00e4p bar\u015fyma \u00e7yn s\u00f6\u00fdgini\u0148 \u00fdadyg\u00e4rligini \u00e4kidip bar\u00fdan \u00fdaly, ha\u00fdaljak \u00fd\u00f6r\u00e4p, kalbymda yz go\u00fdan s\u00f6\u00fdgini\u0148 suduryny g\u00f6terip \u00fd\u00f6rap bar\u00fd\u00e4rdym. \u2026 Bilmedim nireden \u00fd\u00f6r\u00e4p bar\u00fdardym, bilmedim ha\u00fdsy k\u00f6\u00e7eden, ha\u00fdsy bagla\u0148 i\u00e7inden. \u00dd\u00f6ne ge\u00e7mi\u015fden bu g\u00fcne gelen nesibesini\u0148 nijeme \u00fdyllardan so\u0148, \u00f6z \u00e7yn e\u00fdesine gowu\u015fmagy \u00fdaly bir gymmat zat bolup bilermi, ynsan ogly \u00fc\u00e7in? Bu elbukja men juda k\u00f6p \u00fdyllar gara\u015fdym, meni\u0148 bu elbukja-nesib\u00e4me mynasyp bolmak \u00fc\u00e7in \u00fdazan eserlerim ma\u0148a juda uly \u015f\u00f6hrat getirdi. Bagy\u015fla s\u00f6\u00fdgi! Bagy\u015fla elbukjam, ma\u0148a gara\u015fyp, bir sandygy\u0148 bur\u00e7unda kyrk \u00fdyl duran elbukjam, bagy\u015fla\u0148 meni \u00f6z e\u00fdesine okamak \u00fc\u00e7in i\u00fdbermedik hatlarym. \u015eun\u00e7a \u00fdyllardan so\u0148 \u00e7ekilen nesibe, meni bagy\u015fla. Bagy\u015fla \u00fdaryny\u0148 to\u00fduny g\u00f6rm\u00e4ge baran, \u015fol ki\u00e7ijik hem in\u00e7ejik barmakly, g\u00f6zleri umman \u00fdaly gahrymanym. Meni bagy\u015fla! Sen ol g\u00fcnler juda, juda g\u00f6geledi\u0148! Seni\u0148 bagty\u0148 \u00fc\u00e7in , seni\u0148 ol elbukjany \u00f6z wagtynda almagy\u0148 \u00fc\u00e7in hi\u00e7 kim g\u00f6re\u015fmedi. Sen hi\u00e7 kimi onu\u0148 \u00fc\u00e7in g\u00fcn\u00fck\u00e4rlermedi\u0148em! \u00dd\u00f6ne seret, g\u00f6re\u015fmese\u0148em, gara\u015fmasa\u0148 hem nesib\u00e4\u0148 sa\u0148a \u015fun\u00e7a \u00fdyllardan so\u0148 dolanyp geldi. Bu \u201cYnsany\u0148 nesibesini hi\u00e7 kim alyp bilmez!\u201d- di\u00fdmekdir, bilse\u0148! Barmaklarym titre\u00fd\u00e4rdi. Olary\u0148 arasyndan akyp \u00fdatan elbukjany\u0148 \u00fd\u00fcpek bagjyklary gadymy\u00fdeti\u0148 sal- sal ke\u015fbi kibi, derw\u00fc\u015f hyrkasyny\u0148 etegi kibi d\u00f6k\u00fclip bar\u00fdardy. Olary\u0148 in\u00e7e nagy\u015flaryndan m\u00e4hell\u00e4ni\u0148 i\u00e7ine g\u00fcl d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fd\u00e4rdi, g\u00f6\u00fd\u00e4ki\u2026 Barmakalrym titre\u00fd\u00e4rdi. Bir mahallar n\u00e4hiljekdi, olar bir mahallar ke\u015fde ke\u015f\u00e4rdi, e\u00fdjejikdi, akjady, n\u00e4zijekdi\u2026 Ujuna s\u00fcnj\u00fclen i\u0148\u0148\u00e4ni\u0148 ajysyna ynjardy, tisginerdi. Ol barmaklar ejaby\u0148 i\u0148 g\u00f6zel nusgasy bolan sa\u00e7larymy\u0148 arasynda gezeninde bagty arzuwlap, nijeme gezekler i\u015f bukjasyny sypamak isl\u00e4ndirler. Ol barmaklar juda owadandy, uzynda, n\u00e4zikdi. Emma bu g\u00fcn olar el bukjasyny saklap durkalar juda- juda g\u00f6dek g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fd\u00e4r. G\u00f6r olar ha\u00fdsy \u00e7arkandakdan geldiler? G\u00f6r olar nijeme gezekler i\u0148\u0148eler \u00e7\u00fcmen u\u00e7laryny\u0148 yzasyny i\u00e7lerinde g\u00f6z\u00fda\u015flary kibi gizlin sakladylar. Hi\u00e7 kime bildirmejek bolup, nijeme i\u00e7lerini \u00e7eken gezegi barmaklar d\u00fc\u00fdrlenip, dara\u00fdy donu\u0148 \u00fde\u0148inden yzyna girendir, ak s\u00fcl\u00fckler kibi\u2026 H\u00e4zir \u00e4hli zatlar a\u00fdlan\u00fdar: menem , barmaklarym hem, el bukjasy \u2013nesib\u00e4m hem\u2026 Men o\u0148a belki \u015famar daraklarymy salyp, sizi\u0148 otagy\u0148yzda bir bur\u00e7da go\u00fdardym\u2026 Belki \u2013 de hi\u00e7 bahar \u00fdeli degmedik sa\u00e7larmy\u0148 i\u00e7i bilen barmaklarymy \u00fd\u00fczd\u00fcrip, sizi\u0148 penjir\u00e4\u0148izden \u00fdola garap, sa\u0148a gara\u015fardym,gijelerine\u2026 \u201cMeni\u0148 hi\u00e7 zatdan habarsyz d\u00fcn\u00fd\u00e4m, sen bu wagt bagtdan serho\u015fmu\u0148?\u201d -di\u00fdip, sorag bersem, n\u00e4me ejap bolardymy? \u2026To\u00fdu\u0148 \u015fowhuny gulagy\u0148y de\u015fip bar\u00fdardy. Entegem geli- gidip duran myhmanlar bardy, \u00fdek- t\u00fck\u2026 Ga\u00fdd\u00fdanlar hem k\u00f6pdi\u2026 Ol \u015fowhuny\u0148 i\u00e7inden bir \u00fderlerden seni\u0148 ma\u0148a bakma\u00fdany\u0148y bil\u00fd\u00e4nem bolsam, basymrak \u00fd\u00f6r\u00e4p, hemi\u015feki bol\u015fum kibi, seni ilkinji gezek \u00f6z otagymda g\u00f6renimd\u00e4ki \u00fdaly, h\u00e4zir d\u00fcn\u00fd\u00e4ni\u0148 bir k\u00fcnj\u00fcne edil \u00e7\u00fc\u00fdlenen \u00fdaly durdum! Da\u015f \u2013 t\u00f6weregimd\u00e4ki m\u00e4hell\u00e4ni\u0148 sesi gulaklarymy\u0148 de\u0148inden u\u00e7up ge\u00e7ip gid\u00fd\u00e4rdi hamana! \u2026 \u015eonda \u2013 da men kitaphanamy\u0148 \u00f6\u0148\u00fcnde durdum, ki\u00e7ijik otag kitaphanasyny\u0148. Sen geleni\u0148de. Girdi\u0148! \u2013 Hihhh, se\u0148 n\u00e4me i\u015fi\u0148 bar bu ta\u00fdda..? Umumy \u00fda\u015fa\u00fdy\u015f ja\u00fdyny\u0148 otaglary ol d\u00f6w\u00fcrler ki\u00e7ir\u00e4jikdi. Du\u00fddansyz girip, gapyny\u0148 agzynda k\u00fcrtd\u00fcrip durdu\u0148 \u2013 da ma\u0148a seslendi\u0148: \u2013 Bil\u00fd\u00e4n men hemme zady\u2026 Men\u2026 Men \u00fdal\u0148y\u015fdym\u2026Meni bagy\u015fla, ejem g\u00f6wnemedi, \u201cokuwly gyz gerek d\u00e4l\u201d di\u00fddi\u2026 \u2013 Toba, git bu \u00fderden, seni\u0148 n\u00e4me i\u015fi\u0148 bar bu ta\u00fdda? Men sa\u0148a seretm\u00e4ge- de ejap etdim. Ol d\u00f6w\u00fcrler ba\u015fgady\u2026 \u2013 Me\u0148 bir i\u015fim bar, me\u0148 i\u015fim sen! Seretsene b\u00e4ri\u0148e? \u2013 Basymrak git, seni g\u00f6zl\u00e4rler, sen indi ba\u015fga adam, sen indi meni unut! \u2013 Sen meni undup bilersi\u0148mi? \u2013 Sen gitsene! \u2013 Men se\u0148 bilen gitjek bu \u00fderden\u2026 \u2013 N\u00e4me? Bola\u00fdypdyr. Biz d\u00f6rt bolup tirke\u015fip gitsek\u2026 D\u00e4liredi\u0148mi? Gulagy\u0148 bir e\u015fid\u00fd\u00e4rmi, di\u00fd\u00fd\u00e4n zatlary\u0148y? Sa\u0148a oglu\u0148, gelni\u0148 gara\u015f\u00fdar di\u00fd\u00fd\u00e4n, gitsene! \u2026 Sa\u0148a a\u00fdtmaly zadym bar?! \u2013 Indi gi\u00e7, a\u00fddylsa \u2013 da gi\u00e7, a\u00fddylmasa \u2013 da\u2026 Hi\u00e7 bir g\u00fc\u00fd\u00e7 ge\u00e7eni yzyna ga\u00fdtaryp bil\u00fd\u00e4n d\u00e4ldir\u2026 Men okuwym bilen bolmaly. Siz okuwy \u201chalama\u00fdrsy\u0148yz\u201d ahbetin\u2026 Men bolsa, okuwsyz, bilimsiz \u00fda\u015fap bilme\u00fd\u00e4n. Howam me\u0148 okuw, howam , d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fd\u00e4rmi\u0148, hoo-wa\u2014a-a- m\u2026aglap go\u00fdberdim\u2026 (Gujagymda to\u00fd \u015fowhuny bilen dabara garylyp gid\u00fd\u00e4r- de bir \u00fderlerden ses gel\u00fd\u00e4r: \u2013 Ge\u00e7eni ga\u00fdtaryp bol\u00fdan d\u00e4ldi! \u00ddigit: \u2013 Bil\u00fd\u00e4n! \u2013 Bilse\u0148 be\u00fddip dikilgazyk bolup durmazdy\u0148, gapymda. Men bu gapy\u0148 \u00f6\u0148\u00fcnde durmagy\u0148y isl\u00e4mmok. A\u015fak bo\u00fdnu\u0148y sallady\u0148 \u2013 da i\u00e7imd\u00e4ki pikiri sen a\u00fdtdy\u0148: \u2013 \u201cGitmegi\u0148i hem isl\u00e4mmok\u201d di\u00fdsene! \u2013 Git, bu kitaplara seret, okamaly, ertir synag bar\u2026 Okuw meni\u0148 \u00fc\u00e7in \u00e4hli zatdan wajyp\u2026 \u2013 Kitaplary\u0148y \u00fdany\u0148a al, biz bile gideli\u2026 \u2013 Kitaplar hi\u00e7 \u00fdere gitme\u00fd\u00e4rler, olara di\u0148e gelip bol\u00fdar\u2026 Sen uludan demi\u0148i aldy\u0148. \u201cDil\u00e7ileri s\u00f6zde \u00fde\u0148ip bolmajagyny\u201d bil\u00fd\u00e4n \u00fdaly, \u00fdylgyrdy\u0148! Ikimizi\u0148 g\u00fcrr\u00fc\u0148imiz uzaga \u00e7ekmedi\u2026 Seni \u00e7agyrdylar. Sen barybir ma\u0148a a\u00fdtjagy\u0148y a\u00fddyp gitdi\u0148: \u2013 Men sa\u0148a \u00f6mr\u00fcm \u00f6t\u00fcn\u00e7\u00e4 gara\u015faryn! Yzy\u0148dan gapyny \u015fe\u00fdlebir \u00fdapypdym, \u015fonda. \u00d6z- \u00f6z\u00fcme, hem sa\u0148a, hem \u00f6z n\u00e4zijek d\u00fcn\u00fd\u00e4me, hem \u015fygra, hem sungata, hem ge\u00e7mi\u015fe, hem elbukja, hem hemmelere gapyny \u00fdapypdym , g\u00f6\u00fd\u00e4ki. Umumy \u00fda\u015fa\u00fdy\u015f ja\u00fdyny\u0148 \u00e4hli diwarlary sarsyp gitdi, megerem. \u015eol g\u00fcn gyzlary\u0148 kitaphana gidendikleri hem gowy zat. Hi\u00e7 kim meni\u0148 hasratymy bilmedi. \u00ddeke \u2013 t\u00e4k bilen zat elbukjadyr megerem, se\u0148 eje\u0148 sanadygynda \u015fun\u00e7a \u00fdyl ma\u0148a gara\u015fan, elbukja. Ol hi\u00e7 kime nesip etm\u00e4n, \u201cma\u0148a gara\u015fypdyr\u201d di\u00fdmek\u2026 \u2026 H\u00e4zir \u015fe\u00fdlebir gygyrasym geldi, emma i\u00e7imd\u00e4ki ses \u00fdene \u2013 de ejaba \u00e7enli, ejaby\u0148 i\u0148 so\u0148ky nokadyna \u00e7enli gygyrmagyma rugsat berme\u00fd\u00e4rdi. \u2013 \u201cEjap\u201d di\u00fdmek? Di\u00fdmek bu s\u00fc\u00fdji du\u00fdgulary\u0148 jemi bolmaly\u2026 Ejaby\u0148 nokady\u2026 Men elbukjany sypamaga \u2013 da d\u00f6zmedim. Ynsan \u00fd\u00fcregind\u00e4ki du\u00fdgulary\u0148 \u00e7u\u0148lugynda \u00fditip giden \u00fdodalary\u0148 yzy barybir gal\u00fdan bolara \u00e7emli, \u015fe\u00fddip men seni \u00f6z\u00fcmden e\u00fd g\u00f6r\u00fcpdim, ahbetin? Jigi\u0148 ma\u0148a: Se\u0148 \u201cbir g\u00f6zeli\u0148 y\u015fgyna \u00fdesir d\u00fc\u015fendigi\u0148i\u201d a\u00fddanynda, men seni\u0148 bagtly bolmagy\u0148y isl\u00e4pdim. \u015eol seb\u00e4pli hem seni\u0148 bagtly \u00fd\u00fcz\u00fc\u0148i g\u00f6rmek \u00fc\u00e7in to\u00fda barypdym. \u00dc\u00fd\u015f\u00fcp bardyk \u015fonda\u2026 Joralarymyzy\u0148 \u00e4hlisi bardy, e\u00fdsem \u2013 de ejeleri hem- de gyz jigileri hem bardy. Gidemizde gitdigem otlyda gyzykly boldy, k\u00f6p\u00e7\u00fclik bolup gitmegimiz. Emma ga\u00fddy\u015fyn seni\u0148 gamgyn \u00fd\u00fcz\u00fc\u0148i g\u00f6r\u00fcp ga\u00fdtmak, megerem meni\u0148 \u00fc\u00e7in i\u0148 agyr g\u00fcn \u015fol g\u00fcndi\u2026 \u2026 To\u00fd g\u00fcn\u00fcni\u0148 ag\u015famsy , to\u00fddan yzymyza ga\u00fddan g\u00fcn\u00fcmizdi, meni derde go\u00fdan zat. Ondan \u00f6\u0148 men seni\u0148 bagtly boljagy\u0148a ynan\u00fdardym. Sen bizi\u0148 talyplyk \u00fdyllarymyzda hemi\u015fe bizi- bo\u00fdda\u015fym ikimizi otla m\u00fcndirip, ugradyp go\u00fdber\u00fd\u00e4rdi\u0148,size myhman\u00e7ylyga baranymda. T\u00e4 ki otly g\u00f6z\u00fc\u0148den gid\u00fd\u00e4n\u00e7\u00e4 seredip durmagam seni\u0148 ed\u00e4hedi\u0148digini men bilme\u00fd\u00e4ndir \u00f6\u00fdd\u00fd\u00e4rmi\u0148?I\u0148 so\u0148ky gezek size se\u0148 to\u00fdu\u0148a baranymyzda seni\u0148 gamgyn ke\u015fbi\u0148i g\u00f6r\u00fcp ga\u00fdtmak ma\u0148a kyn d\u00fc\u015fdi. \u015eonda \u2013 da to\u00fd \u015fowhunlydy, gijede, k\u00fc\u015ft depil\u00fd\u00e4rdi, altyn gabak atyl\u00fdardy. Ol to\u00fdda \u00fdekeje adam gam \u00e7ek\u00fd\u00e4rdi, elbukjasyna gara\u015fan adam. Ol to\u00fdy ge\u00e7irmek gaty kyn bolupdy, ol adama. Emma ba\u015fardy, \u00f6z s\u00f6\u00fdg\u00fcsini \u00f6z eli bilen \u201cbagtly etm\u00e4ge\u201d baran adamy\u0148 \u00fd\u00fcregi n\u00e4hilik\u00e4? H\u00e4zir \u015fol \u00e4dimi \u00e4dip biljek d\u00e4l ! Megerem \u00fda\u015flygy\u0148 \u00fd\u00fcregi berk bol\u00fdan bolara \u00e7emli? Kim biler? \u2026 H\u00e4zir men to\u00fddan galan myhmanlar bilen tans ed\u00fd\u00e4rin. G\u00f6\u00fd\u00e4ki \u201cgujagymdan, elimden bir zadymy ga\u00e7yra\u00fdma\u00fdyn\u201d di\u00fdip, sakla\u00fdan du\u00fdgym hem meni \u00f6z erkime go\u00fdma\u00fdar, elbukjam-nesib\u00e4mmm\u2026 \u2026 ELIMDE bukjam, we men! M\u00fc\u0148ler\u00e7e we \u00fd\u00fczler\u00e7e adamlary\u0148 i\u00e7inde eli bukjaly men durun, \u015foool ki\u00e7ijik gyz! Howa \u015fo-o-o-o-l gyz , \u00f6z bagtyny \u00f6zi g\u00f6zl\u00e4n, \u00f6z bagtyny tapsa \u2013 da hi\u00e7 kim pitiwa etmedik, kimdir birine a\u00fddyp, \u00f6z bagty\u0148y gazanmalydygyny aklyna \u2013 da getirmedik gyz, ah gyzjagaz! Hem ol pyrlan\u00fdar da\u015fymdan hem men o\u0148 da\u015fynda hozanak! Men we \u00fdene men \u2013 ikimizi\u0148 aramyzdaky parh \u00f6z bagtyny ga\u00fdra go\u00fdan gyzjagaz we perzendini\u0148 bagtly bolmagy \u00fc\u00e7in hi\u00e7 zady ga\u00fdgyrmadyk ENE! Ikimiz hem pyrlan\u00fdarys, ikimiz hem a\u00fdlan\u00fdarys! G\u00f6\u00fd\u00e4ki biz bilen \u00fdyldyzlar hem a\u00fdlan\u00fdar. Ilki gyzjagaz \u00e7yk\u00fdar gamgyn g\u00f6zlerini bir nokada dikip, so\u0148ra ene\u2026 Ikimiz d\u00f6rt el bilen elbukjany-nesib\u00e4mizi sakla\u00fdarys, gyzjagaz ga\u00e7yrjak bolsa, berda\u015fly barmaklary bilen ene sakla\u00fdar. Ene tolgunyp ga\u00e7yrjak bolsa, n\u00e4zijek barmaklary bilen \u00f6z bagtyny\u0148 nir\u00e4 gidendigine d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmedik gyzjagaz bukjany ellerine ga\u00fdym al\u00fdar\u2026 H\u00e4zir elbukjany\u0148 bagty bir gursakly iki ynsany\u0148 kalbyny g\u00f6ge u\u00e7ur\u00fdar\u2026 \u015eol k\u00f6\u0148\u00fcl sende \u015fu wagt bolsady. Sen n\u00e4hili u\u00e7ardy\u0148? Sen g\u00f6dek elleri\u0148de saklap duran el bukja\u0148y n\u00e4zik \u00fd\u00fcregi\u0148 bilen bagry\u0148a basyp, agla\u00fdardy\u0148,ene! \u00d6z nesib\u00e4\u0148 \u201cni\u00e7 \u00fdere gitmejekdigini, hi\u00e7 kime mi\u00fdesser etmejekdigini\u201d belki \u2013 de ikimizem bil\u00fd\u00e4ris, gahrymanym? Belki \u015fol g\u00fcnlerem bil\u00fd\u00e4ndiris, i\u0148 bolman syz\u00fdandyrys? I\u00e7imde bir ses di\u0148e g\u00f6z\u00fda\u015flary\u0148 i\u00e7i bilen uzaklara sered\u00fd\u00e4rdi\u2026 Myhmanlary\u0148 meni: \u201cbagtlydyr \u00f6\u00fdd\u00fd\u00e4n\u201d nazarlaryny\u0148 i\u00e7inde ge\u00e7ip gid\u00fd\u00e4n sada, \u00fd\u00f6neke\u00fd, \u00f6z bagtyny \u00f6zi sa\u00fdlasa- da \u201c\u00fdetmelidir\u201d hem \u00f6\u00fdtmedik bir ki\u00e7ijik \u00fd\u00f6neke\u00fd, \u201cokuwly\u201d gyzy\u0148 bolup dur\u015funa h\u00e4zir kim d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcner , di\u00fdsene?! Uzakdan seretse\u0148, el bukjasyny bagryna basyp duran, perzendini\u0148 bagty ugrunda g\u00f6re\u015fen en\u00e4ni\u0148 bolup dur\u015fy ge\u0148di. Adamlary\u0148 \u00e4hlisi onu\u0148 da\u015fynda ellerini birle\u015fdirip, onu\u0148 perzendini\u0148 bagtyna guwan\u015fyna \u00fdylgyryp bak\u00fdardylar. (K\u00fc\u015ft depil\u00fd\u00e4rdi) Ellerind\u00e4ki bukjany bagryna berk bas\u00fdardy, g\u00f6\u00fd\u00e4ki biri ala\u00fdjak \u00fdylydy. Belki \u2013 de ol \u00f6z bagtyny\u0148 bu bukjany\u0148 i\u00e7inde g:urap, kyrk \u00fdyl b\u00e4ri bir sandykda gizlin \u00fdatandygyny hi\u00e7 kim bil\u00fd\u00e4nem d\u00e4ldir? Onu\u0148 i\u00e7inden ge\u00e7en du\u00fdgulary\u0148 \u201cg:urap\u201d gidendigine kim ynansyn? Mun\u00e7a \u201cg\u00f6zleri nemlendiren\u201d s\u00f6\u00fdgini\u0148 taryhyna di\u0148 saljak, o\u0148a \u015fa\u00fdat boljak di\u0148le\u00fdjileri\u0148 bir g\u00fcnden bir g\u00fcn ol du\u015fu\u015fyga , elbukjaly waka \u015fa\u00fdat boljakdygyny kim bilsin? \u2013 Berm\u00e4ndirmi hi\u00e7 kime? Men zordan \u00fduwdunyp, soradym! \u2013 Berm\u00e4ndir! Sen onu\u0148 mukaddes saklanandygyna ynan\u00fdardy\u0148! Hi\u00e7 kime berm\u00e4ndir! \u2013 \u015eo gije bermelidimi? \u2013 \u015eo gije bermelidi\u2026 Ikimiz di\u0148e \u00fcm bilen d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcni\u015f\u00fd\u00e4rdik. Men \u00fduwdundym. Ikimize g\u00fcrlemek barmydy , \u015fundan so\u0148? \u00ddokdy ahbetin, \u00fdokdy! \u2013 E\u00fdsem men kim, bu bukja nire?(Men bir \u201cbilim\u201d di\u00fdip, bagtyny u\u00e7uran gyzjagazdym) Ellerimd\u00e4ki i\u015f bukjany berk gys\u00fdardym, g\u00f6\u00fd\u00e4ki biri ony elimden aljak bol\u00fdan \u00fdaly, menem bermejek bol\u00fdan \u00fdalydym\u2026 \u015ee\u00fdlebir gysgan\u00fdardym, \u015fe\u00fdlebir gys\u00fdardym. Bu du\u00fdgy juda deldi ma\u0148a. Ki\u00e7ijik ellerine berk gysyp duran el bukjasyny hamana kimdir biri h\u00e4zir ala\u00fdjak \u00fdaly, be\u00fdik \u00fd\u00fcrekli ene durdy. Ol \u00f6z perzendini\u0148 bagtyny goramak \u00fc\u00e7in durmaly \u00fderinde durdy. S\u00f6\u00fdgini\u0148 \u00f6\u0148\u00fcnde onu\u0148 borjy bardy. Ol \u00f6z s\u00f6\u00fdg\u00fcsini gorap bilmedi, \u00fd\u00f6ne ol \u00f6z s\u00f6\u00fdgisini\u0148 \u00fdadyg\u00e4rligini h\u00e4zir elbukjasyny\u0148 i\u00e7ine salyp, \u00f6z perzendini\u0148 bagtyny gorap dur! Bu \u015fowhunly m\u00e4rek\u00e4ni\u0148 i\u00e7ind\u00e4ki adamlary\u0148, to\u00fda gelen myhmanlary\u0148 hi\u00e7 biri onu\u0148 \u00fd\u00fcregind\u00e4ki \u015fol harasatdan hi\u00e7 mahal habarly bolmadyklary \u00fdaly, hi\u00e7 wagt habarly bolup bilmejeklerni bil\u00fd\u00e4nem d\u00e4ldirler. Ene elind\u00e4ki ki\u00e7ijik elbukja bilen \u00f6z \u00fdeke \u2013 t\u00e4k perzendini\u0148 uly bagtyny gorap durdy. Ol onu\u0148 wepa ny\u015fanydy ahbetin! Onu\u0148 elinde mukaddesligi\u0148 \u00fdeke \u2013 t\u00e4k \u00fdaragy bardy, wepalylyk! Y\u015fgy\u0148 \u00fdadyg\u00e4rligi bolmaly dal, y\u015fgy\u0148 perzentleri bolmaly. \u201cY\u015fgy\u0148 \u00fdadyg\u00e4rligi bolsa- da ol perzentleri\u0148 bagtyny gorajak \u00fdarag bolmaly\u201d di\u00fd\u00fd\u00e4r ene! Ene hi\u00e7 zat di\u00fdme\u00fd\u00e4rdi, aslynda. Ol di\u0148e py\u015fyrda\u00fdar: \u201cBu meni\u0148kimi?\u201d \u2013 Howa, seni\u0148ki!Nesib\u00e4\u0148! Berk sakla, \u00fditirme! Gijem bolsa, seni\u0148ki \u015fol! \u2013 Me\u0148kimi? \u00ddene sora\u00fdar hem g\u00f6zlerini\u0148 bagty\u00fdar \u00fda\u015fyny syl\u00fdar. \u2013 Howa , gys bagry\u0148a ene, perzentleri\u0148 bagtyny hi\u00e7 kime berme! Olar bir \u2013 birini\u0148 y\u015fgyndan s\u00f6\u00fdgi perzentlerini d\u00fcn\u00fd\u00e4 i\u00fdndirsinler! Go\u00fd olar bir \u2013 birege go\u015fa gumry \u00fdaly gysly\u015fyp, bagtly bolmany \u00f6wrensinler. Olar ellerine s\u00f6\u00fdgini\u0148 \u201cgury\u201d bukjasyny almasynlar! Olar \u00f6z bagtlaryny g\u00fclletsinler! Perzentleri d\u00fcn\u00fd\u00e4 i\u00fdnsin. Ene di\u0148e bagty\u00fdar g\u00f6zlerinden bagt g\u00f6z\u00fda\u015flaryny d\u00f6k\u00fd\u00e4rdi. Agla\u00fdardy ene! Ol go\u015fa bagta \u00e7ydap bilm\u00e4n agla\u00fdardy. Onu\u0148 gursagynda y\u015fgy\u0148 mirasy ga\u00fdna\u00fdardy. Ge\u00e7mi\u015fe bolan mukaddes du\u00fdgy bilen gelejege bolan be\u00fdik s\u00f6gi iki gollaryny ganatlandyr\u00fdardy. Ene ge\u00e7mi\u015f bilen gelejegi\u0148 arasynda durdy. Ynsany\u0148 wezipesem \u015fondan ybarat ahbetin, be\u00fdik filosof Fridrih Nis\u015f\u00e4ni\u0148 a\u00fddy\u015fy \u00fdaly- YNSAN GE\u00c7MI\u015eDEN GELEJEGE BIR TANAP K\u00d6PR\u00dcDIR! En\u00e4ni\u0148 ke\u015fbi \u015fol k\u00f6pr\u00fcdi, h\u00e4zir! \u2026 M\u00fc\u0148ler\u00e7e adamlary\u0148 i\u00e7inde ene \u00fdeke durdy. Onu\u0148 \u00fdekeligi bilen perzendini\u0148 bagtly bolmagyna gar\u015fy durjak bu d\u00fcn\u00fdede \u00fdeke g\u00fc\u00fd\u00e7 barmy? Eneleri\u0148 \u00f6\u0148\u00fcnde durjak g\u00fc\u00fd\u00e7 \u00fdokdur. Ol g\u00fc\u00fdji di\u0148e eneler syzyp bilerler. Ba\u015fga kimse bu g\u00fc\u00fdji\u0148 bardygyny belki bil\u00fd\u00e4n hem d\u00e4ldir. Belki ene bolany \u00fc\u00e7in perzende \u015fol bagty ber\u00fd\u00e4ndir. Kim biler? \u2026 Eneden da\u015fla\u015f\u00fdan g\u00f6z uzaklara ga\u00fdtdy. Ene entegem elinde kyrk \u00fdyldan so\u0148 \u00f6z\u00fcne berilen elbukjasyny-nesibesini gysyp durdy. G\u00f6\u00fd\u00e4ki ol: \u00d6z bagtyndan bir gysym topragy gysyp duran \u00fdaly, barmaklaryny d\u00f6w\u00e4\u00fdjek bol\u00fdardy. \u2013 \u015eu me\u0148kimi? Di\u0148e gymylda\u00fdan dodaklar bir zatlar py\u015fyrda\u00fdardy\u2026 \u2013 Howa, se\u0148ki\u2026 (Bir \u00fderlerden ses gel\u00fd\u00e4rdi) Ol bukja sa\u0148a tab\u015fyrylmadyk bukja, ol bukja sa\u0148a kyrk \u00fdyla gowrak wagt b\u00e4ri \u015fo \u2013 o- l en\u00e4ni\u0148 sandygynda gara\u015fyp \u00fdatan bukja. Ol bukja sa\u0148a \u2013 da berilmedi \u015fonda, to\u00fdda. \u00dd\u00f6ne berilmeli adamsyna hem berilmedi, bir seb\u00e4p bilen. N\u00e4me \u00fc\u00e7in berilmedi, ony hem di\u0148e nesibe bil\u00fd\u00e4r, g\u00f6rsene nesib\u00e4ni? \u015eol bukja zar wagty n\u00e4me \u00fc\u00e7indir, hi\u00e7 kimi\u0148 \u015fol bukjany\u0148 e\u00fdesi \u201c\u015fu gyzjagazdygyny\u201d Ykbaly\u0148 gulagyna hi\u00e7 kim py\u015fyrdamadyka? \u00dda \u2013 da nesibe di\u00fdil\u00fd\u00e4nimik\u00e4, \u015fu? Kim biler. Durmu\u015f gaty \u00e7yl\u015fyrymly. G\u00f6rsene, \u00f6z\u00fcne \u015fol m\u00e4t\u00e4\u00e7 wagty berilmedik bukja \u00f6z \u00fdeke perzendini\u0148 to\u00fdunda nesibe bolup dolandy. Nesib\u00e4ni\u0148 \u015fun\u00e7a \u00fdyl gara\u015f\u00fdandygyna kim ynanar di\u00fdsene?! Juda t\u00e4sin! Ellerind\u00e4ki bukja berk \u00fdapy\u015fyp dur\u015funa egnine atyl\u00fdan pombarhat k\u00f6\u00fdneklikleri\u0148 \u00e4hlisini syryp- syryp a\u00fdyrdy- da bir gyrada go\u00fddy. Elind\u00e4ki bukjany welin \u015fol g\u00f6dek barmaklaryny\u0148 arasyna berk gysymlap, to\u00fd m\u00e4hellesini\u0148 i\u00e7ine si\u0148ip bar\u00fdardy, ene. Onu\u0148 g\u00f6zlerind\u00e4ki bagt u\u00e7gunjyklary \u015fun\u00e7a \u00fdyllap, kalbynda gizl\u00e4p saklan ejabyny\u0148 ke\u015fbidi. Ol ejaby\u0148 g\u00f6zelligi, s\u00fc\u00fdj\u00fcligi, ol ejaby\u0148 mukaddesligi elbukjadady, hamana! Nesib\u00e4ni\u0148 \u00f6z e\u00fdesini tap\u00fdandygyna \u015fu gi\u0148 d\u00fcn\u00fdede hi\u00e7 \u015f\u00fcbh\u00e4niz bolmasyn!<\/p>\n
Oguljennet B\u00e4\u015fimowa<\/strong><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Ol g\u00fcn\u2026 Ol g\u00fcn ba\u015fga bir g\u00fcndi\u2026 To\u00fd gidip durdy. Da\u015f \u2013 t\u00f6weregi\u0148 \u015fowhuny gulagy\u0148y de\u015fip bar\u00fdardy. To\u00fd, \u00fdene \u2013 de to\u00fd\u2026 \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr, to\u00fdlar to\u00fda ula\u015fybersin! To\u00fdlarda gazanlar ga\u00fdnasyn, \u00e7elpekler \u00fdapylsyn, k\u00fc\u015ft depilip, altyn gabak atylsyn! (To\u00fdu\u0148 dabarasy) \u00ddeke \u2013 \u00fdal\u0148yz, bir ba\u015fyna perzendini g\u00f6zli \u2013 ba\u015fly etmek \u00fc\u00e7in b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6mr\u00fcni \u00fdeke ge\u00e7iren, hany \u2013 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":24454,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[16,10],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/newsashgabat.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24453"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/newsashgabat.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/newsashgabat.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/newsashgabat.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/newsashgabat.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=24453"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/newsashgabat.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24453\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":24459,"href":"https:\/\/newsashgabat.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24453\/revisions\/24459"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/newsashgabat.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/24454"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/newsashgabat.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=24453"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/newsashgabat.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=24453"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/newsashgabat.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=24453"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}